Vida de Mía

what a year this 2009 has been; a lot had happened, a lot of first times.. but don't want to look back and reminiscing.. some lessons learned- i'm glad i'm over some stuff and all those memories, happiness and the opposite.. i just want to welcome 2010. Finally..new year is tomorrow, 2010 stepping in tomorrow. semoga  azamku, hajatku..impianku tercapai semoga karier aku lebih mencapai kepuasan.. semoga aku lebey hepi.. semoga aku lebey free.. semoga tahun ini lebey baik dari biasa!! Hepi 2010 to you too, dear~ \\(^_^)//

hitz.fm hot topic for this week = B est Thing that Happened in 2009 .  well, to me..byk yg jadi this year. both, high and low. [paling tak besh = achik mati. :(] tp..yg seronok byk sgt. still..if we're looking for the BEST, kena ada satu je la : i) it starts with 'c' ('c' stands for multiple thingy~) ii) 'we' met in june  (yg satu lagik aku jupe bln jun pon besh gaks :p) iii) my one and only.. (my special one!! special in sooo many ways) iv) blue (despite my fave color = red) **lompat bintang sebanyak 9004 kali!!! *grin*

finally, this week sampai gaks. yup..  kinda tired of 2009 olredi! let's ingat2 blk: this year..aku tpaksa start my life as a working adult all over again - working at new place, in kedah, in gov. it's rather a bad start. everything is just too slow and too damn boring. thankfully the pace is up lately. i hope it stays like that or maybe can be even better. (or maybe i feel better since i'm adapted to it. huh!) then, i'm struggling with my very own issue, thankfully.. 'berakhir di januari~~' <-- huh.. almost forgot i had one. my work.. this is the starting point yg caused me to be the modeller or designer which i have to say, i'm not that keen at all, yet..it is one of those thing yg terlajak n kemampuan ntuk patah balik is somewhat complicated! and all i've been doing is telan and telan and telan.. and still tuh la yg aku wat. yup. aku tak berusaha langsung to make my stay better..i just go with the flow and didn't stop to think or to act at all....

something that make you or force you to think is something that matter.. and of cos.. there's always a thing that is more than jus  some things ... - - -

hu hu hu..this week is long and short at the same time. it is looooooonngg on monday..but, when me and ann bukak ceta 'boys over flower' pada mlm hari.. aahh..feels like the night-time is just not enough. ye la..ngantuk=kena tido+nak keje sok, tp nk tgk sbb very besh..(siap terlena lagik depan tv..isk2) tuesday nite, tetiba buat plan nk mkn2 n karok. erm..zul dpt claim n bonus..jd cm cakap2 and dia kata nk belanja. plan nk karok tuh dah lama..yup. ann rajin menyebut. tp terhenti setakat sebutan dan cadangan yg.. masih tak tercapai. tempat kat alor star nie pon tak sure mana yg besh nk kuarkan sore2 yg tak brapa ptt di dengar nie..hehe. so..hr selasa..kuar mkn kat sala n karok kat atas kedai Bata... makan = heaven. karok= tak puas. takpe. ada hari, pegi lagik!! balik tuh..of kos samb tgk ceta 'Boys over Flower..' until 2 am..<--ann tertido. hehe.. so wed nite tak buat pa pe plan at nite. a MUST. have to cont with the drama.. hehe. only, very sleepy.too sleepy to do an...

mungkinkah aku terlalu tak buat pa pe? tak jugak. ada je keje: SKT. projek itu. projek hari tuh. keje2 itu. - previous months lagila takde pa pe nak wat. still..this month is rather too slow.. while org lain mcm "aaa..dah hari rabu.." or "arrr..dah 23 dec.." aku cm.."aik. napa next week masih dec, tak masuk lagi 2011?? eh..tahun depan baru 2010!!!"..isk2 hehe.. aku ingat aku dah 26! aarr..tuh umo org len tuh. aku kan br celebrate silver jubilee..hehe :p *ha'ah..belacan mmg lagik best dr ajinomoto!!

" whether it is in ASB or in Tabung Haji..chica ptt ada savings. Mana la tahu, nanti-bukan nak minta- tp kalau terjadi apa2, kawan2, org lain bukan nak boleh tolong sangat. paling banyak pon mungkin rm1k..tuh pon..susah-sapa yang boleh nk bagi banyak2,kan? sekarang nie, almost every problem pon, sal duit la..kena keluarkan duit untuk settle stuffs . tak perlu la byk sgt..setiap bulan masuk la seratus dua..tp jgn la keluarkan langsung. simpan and simpan until you really need it.." hmm...it's almost like common sense..to have savings ~ simpanan hari tua ~ something like that.. or ~ simpan sikit2 lama2 jadi bukit~ . :). it's a good nasihat, btw.& i am otw to that.. though a bit slow. --and it's already my azam - kinda-when i turned 25 arituh..hmmm~so i jus follow my plan and this, kinda something that remind me to actually doing it. (lagipun br2 nie..kesedaran tuh lebey la bila wat kira2. hehe.. careful dear~ credit card mmg leh membunuh! hahaha... ) *btw, kenap...

erm..agak mendebarkan lagi mencuakkan bila bos ckp nk diskus sal projek sungai. 'kumpul maklumat & bentang'. hmmm..rupanya sbb bos ingat pengarah nk masuk gak meeting on thursday..hehe aku pon siapkan la yg aku mampu. then lepas makan aku tunggu je saat2 yg mendebarkan. (aku mcm tak buat byk menda lagi je)..hehe. bila en zainal masuk opis, 2 min kemudian aku pon attack bilik dia. ..hmmm suma ok. seb bek. dia very2 problem solver. tak pening2. and almost everything that i wanted to know is being told-sal survey, sal LA, sal design, sal duit, sal kawasan.. tp yg paling penting.. 3x dia kata 'bagus sikin (dia mmg eja nama aku w/o y n h!!) awak wat cmnie.'.. smpai dah nk keluar dia ulang. hehe.. erm..kalu dia tak puji pon, aku ok je. sbb aku nampak dgn nyata apa yg nak dibuat. bukan hanging around like always .. for this project, skang nie.. stage dia = kumpul everything so that starting next year leh start engine and masuk gear. tender should be done earliest on aug 2...

i don't go aiming for the unrealistic one. but i do hope. and i secretly dream... **owh my red cherry~

Kedah Maju 2010 World Class Organization by 2010 (JPS) tahun depan nie..maybe sbb no nyer cantek..ramai lak yg pasang angan2..atau membuat keazaman dan cita2... my azam, usually aku buat time my besday. tp tahun depan suma pon akan pandang aku as 26 y/o woman. huhu~woman tuh. tp takpe..aku maintained as 'chica'. hehe.. my azam, for next year = to go for induksi umum. sit for the exam and get all those things yg perlu demi sahkan diri dlm jawatan done. yg lain, aku bg less priority la kot. my keinginan lak for nxt yr = to be able to handle my job better. this year, anggap je 'pendahuluan' or sth like that. hehe.. erm..sbb umur dah meningkat..teringin nk wat harta. kalu 2007 graduate, 2008 dpt secure secure job, 2009 dpt beli barang idaman.. 2010 pulak apa ek? apa pulak menjadi idaman? (:p) owh..lagi satu. aku dah order 'red cherry'~~ walaowei~ p/s dpt ke g percutian idaman ek? hmmm...

pada satu pagi sabtu, aku menyibuk mak dok kemas2 laman. then aku laks g bukak bonet keta-check segala jenis air and minyak.. sbb dah lebey 1k km, tp tak g servis ag. then teringat arituh derang ckp ami pi'e mai jemput kenduri adam.. tetiba dpt idea to pergi gaks. ye la..lama gila tak jupe. almost 12 years. or maybe more than 12 years... * tra n kak da kat tangga. dtg terlebey awal.. hehe *gambar dekat sbb amik sendiri.. hehe   umie nk suma siap by 930. walaowei... awal. ikot je la.. skali mmg sampai very awal. kenduri tuh kat gelugor-seameo rescam..aku pre-scamming kat mana tempat kenduri tuh..mmg leh g sendri la <--bajet terer la..haha. tuan umah pon tak sampai ag. perjlnan g penang pon, dlm 30min je.. very cepat. terpaksa la tunggu until 12 sth br leh makan. then..sbb pengantin bajet2 sampai kul 130..an hour more.. we decided to go on with our plan. so.. last2..pengantin tak jupe. jupe ami pi'e n shafiq je... * permandangan kat batu feringghi. nice..but sorry to say lang...

plz find me so that you can be found

meet Dolly -sepatutnya panggil dollah sbb kucing jantan tuh. tsalah bg nama sbb ayu sgt. hehe..lemah lembut sket..hobi= tido golek2 kat dapur..berbulu hitam n tebal lg panjang..kaler hitam tp cm luntur dek panas..anak kucing lg..jd pendek sket..berlari2 bagai arnab. comot tp comel! nie la latest hot stuff kat kulim. ye la..kat lgkawi mana ader kucing2 dah..sigh~ rindu kucing. menda paling best utk bermain di kala bosan~ ohh..sesungguhnya berada di opis hari ini adalah amat membosankan.....

this month, byk sgt movie yg rasa cm nk tgk. new moon ninja assassin princess and the frog storm warrior sherlock holmes tp yg paling tak tahan new moon la..hahah..ada org tuh sanggup dr langkw ke kulim ke seberang prai lagik!! hehe..akhirnya aku tertido kepenatan and terpaksa tgk 2nd round kat giant. oops. kulim landmark-kedengaran lagi menarik~ itu ceta last week. this week, friday dec11, ..cm malas sgt. hati ini kepingin utk mendapatkan barang idaman: 'ruby'~tp nak drive back and forth to sungai petani..seems not worth. hehe.. cantik tp tak cantik gitu. hmm.. so on friday, cont tgk Attention Plz je la.. then on saturday, dec 12.. mlm tuh gagah gak g Kulim landmark. hmm...~jaja kata besh dgr sore Rain..she watched it twice. tp..tra leh tgk ke? kan 18 SG. tp Ninja Assasin nie one of must-watch muvi..so.. kesian nk tinggal tra kat umah.. kitaorg g jugak2. beratur 2 line berasingan..tgk sapa dpt beli tiket..hehe..tra nyer line sampai luk. maka berpura-pura la adik aku..don't...

semua pun berkemungkinan untuk terjadi. nice things or the opposite or totally unexpected.. it was nice lately. only the response wasn't. it is great.. but never near good. it gave me strength and now make me stronger.. at least that's wat i'd like to think.. send me high but get me lower.. aaahhh.. expectations. when have i met any of it. even mine..

for some person who always find poking into somebody's matter is a bussiness for them, let them run the bussiness so that they have something to do though there isn't actually any! i've made a diversion-when i find things, too tough to handle (or simply to overcome other thing!)..in hope the only thing that will visible would be the diversion. the diversion itself, i have to admit is not totally unimportant. it helped too..having something, somewhere to focus on. One should realize, it's only a diversion. i do. for the others, let them decide. my old books..all those that have something from their years. i believe i have extracted thing that matter thus what's left would be something..you may say, less matter. the book should be destroyed (or maybe recycle <--more green!! :p) as it takes up spaces. next year..the whole new cluster will be at ready.

hepi silver jubilee

anyway, smlm while dgn gigihnya try to habiskan ceta "Attention Please", mama gave a call kat umah kulim - bkn kat hp. kak da jawab..bila cakap2..aku pasang telinga. aik, dgr len macam je nie.. ape kes? *ptt la mama call aku, a bit early that day sal kad kawin yg org antar mama nak bukak n aku laks malas layan-sbb tgk drama kan...maybe this is actually wat mama wants to talk about, tp aku nie...isk2." It's about awie. He asked for mama's permission to go to genting last week. at first, mama is not that keen to let him go-given that he don't even have his own money and etc etc.. at last, dia dpt gak g-which is something i can already guess.. the big news is.. he don't want to come back to lgkw! WHAT THE HECK! siyesli, this brother of mine..i know he always unable making a good decision, but i have no idea he is capable of making a very stupid one, a very23 stupid one either! it's rather a sorry for that person, for his unablility to think what one...

ceta 1: while aku bangga dgn my kv9004c yg bg aku very the cute and still cute biarpun ditelan zaman..hehe.. org itu berkata.."ala.. kat kedah, langkawi, leh la book no. kalu kat kl..mau dekat rm1k.." .."ala..plat no W bkn cun pon!!!" hahaha.. aku ske BAMbee..K and C je..hehe ceta 2: lainnyer perasaan lepas dgr komen on movies.."chica suke tak???" erm~ it's not about this. it's not about that..it's just.. because . ceta 3: aperkah soklan itu. everytime also got the same q. that very sensitive issue shouldn't be brought up at all. por favor. why should you care? i know why, but why??? things changed. *note:past tense. ceta 4: at that time..it seems like itulah lawak yg paling kelakar. kenapakah begitu? mengapakah begitu? (siyesli, no matter how hard i try to understand ..it is kelakor. don't blame me.) then, when i recall the situation.. is it? could it be..??? adoi. very selenga. if that's wat it is..very2 s***********. should i mak...

hmm.. as in today, december 10..genapla setahun keje kat JPS . tp this time last year, more like hepi2 kat ampang..24th br dpt posting kat kedah..owh~ perasaan dpt kat kedah yg..hmmm~ watever. kira bagus la tuh dpt kedah.. kalu dpt kat ntah cherok mana tuh.. br padan muka manusia yg kurang bersyukur nie..hehe memula quite tough accepting duduk kat alor star.pastu plak  gaji lamat, umah sewa-konon2 dok 2 minggu, then 3 bln..then sampai setahun, tak tetap2 gaks....camera yg hilang, bos yg tak teragak-agak konpidennya..alor star itself..hmm~ siyesli..i just love kl..tp dpt dok setahun je. then kena pindah alor star nie..1 of the cities in kedah yg aku paling kureng - no offense. cm nothing here is good enuf. tp..telan je la.. untungnya dok kedah..aku dpt beli barang idaman aku. rasanya kalu kat kl, dgn daily expenses and wat not, tak dpt. Alhamdullillah. ptt bersyukur part tuh. tp kalu aku kat kl kan..aku mesti..erm.....~ then every weekend leh balik. lgkw atau kulim. tp skang nie da...

as usual..bln 12 = cuti skolah = bulan kawin2. yg tak sama cuma..dolu2 yg kawin = anak kawan parents, anak jiran tetangga.. skang yg kawin = kwn2 yg dulu2 men 'aci ligan' sama2, kwn2 skolah, kwn2 universiti, kwn2 internship..kwn2 keje... hm..kena atur yg mana mau g, yg mana tpaksa tak g. hmmm... looking forward for new year, 2010? not yet. not just yet. kenapa sudah tahun baru bila tahun nie pon--walupon rasa dah lama sgt, tp byk yg masih tak 'siap', tak 'dapat', checklist yg tak 'got checked'... hmmm... baki bawa kehadapan?

Mi familía have a vacation planned for this year aidil adha - to celebrate it @ Pantai Chenang.So, mama booked three rooms-more like chalet for lepak2 from friday till sunday morning. Chenang is very cantik. siyesli. walupon dah duduk lgkawi for almost 11 years tak penah jemu pon pantai kat sini. very cantik. nak compare dgn tempat len..rasa..ntah la..here, the beach is very blue, with 3 shades of blue lagik..nyaman..hot but windy..very nice la. the 1st day, we check in @ 2pm..then me trus je layan tido. very hot la at this time.. mesti burn punya la.. ptg tuh ada la men2 kat pantai. erm..but fun tuh belom dtg.lgpon, aku turun pantai dgn spec. nk main lebey2 tak leh la..then dah naik, malas laks turun. lepak je kat pasir putih di tepian pantai~ malam tuh pon lepas makan mlm, aku tak ikot mis hermanas jln2 kat kedai2 situ n g minum teh ais. aku lepaking bilik mama je.. bilik mama laks facing laut, fuh~ very m'asyikhin..hehe.. bunyi ombak cm hujan pon ader.....

me having my time alone at umah in alor star..very2 sola enjoying the night with mee goreng yg kak salwa bagi then watching pure 19 hearts.. 'isk2..cantiknya bangs pompuan nie..." "apakata..aku try potong my own hair..to get that bangs??" aku..silently study the hair.. watching the muvi..the heroin..the bangs very closely.. "hmmm..leh kot ramut aku jadi cmth" the next day, me enjoying my sandwich until petang..dgn 1 jug indocafe watching again the korean drama..continue.. tgk lagi ramut heroin tuh.. "isk2..mmg best la..jom try.." so..before mandi, aku pon g usya2 ramut sendiri depan cermin. amik gunting..measuring..+ safety factor for curly hair..then..CUT 1st cut.ok 2nd cut..erm.. 3rd cut..argh. jom g kedai!!! kat kedai.. "leh tak i nak potong ramut ni..pendek sikit sudah" "tp depan i nak bangs yg serong cmnie" sambil buat gaya tgn... --> "ala..ramut u nie susah la...apakata wat rebondin...

hu hu hu... i read this thing at my fren's wall in fb, her fiancé wrote sth in spanish. very jiwang-like but, i like it yesterday is my fren's bday..her fiancé wrote again: " feliz cumpleaños mi amor..." it's not the ayat, it's the spanish thing. i find it very.. romantic (maybe?) erm.. i love spanish. my fren too..and she loves liverpool plus torres.. (which explain the extend of spanish-thingy in her life..haha) i don't think her fiancé that keen on spanish thing, & as far as i know her fiancé supports other team.. but..his usaha for her.. though not that much..enough to make a heart move in a cute way.. in a sweet way.. there used to be someone who although don't go writing any spanish 'ayat' for me.. but  intrested in my spanish 'ayat-ayat', and ... (me n mis sueños..)

erm..tak ceta lagi sal g tganu on early november. huhu~tak sampai sebulan lagi br balik dr KT , skang g KT lagik. cuma, yg arituh g sbb Hari Inovasi, this time family trip. erm..rajin laks my family g tganu jln2..sbb nak amik sijil awie..kalu tak..mungkin tganu tak dipilih! hahaha.. on thursday, 5 nov 2009 - suma yg terlibat balik n berkumpul kat kulim. mama n abah bw kuar mi carro and kak nie n abg basri akan guna kelisa. friday nov 6, 2009 erm..malasnya nk bgn pagi. sbb hujan. lembab sket perasaan. dah la kena mandi awal kan..abah nk bertolak seawal kul 7. hehe..berjaya gak lambatkan..alah..kak nie still lamat sket mai kat petronas tuh.hehe.. bosan je perjlnan. bkn ada pe. just nyanyi2..aku dok blakang dgn tra. then kak da dah lari ke kereta kelisa-di mana ada uz, kak da nk berada di situ. elok sampai satu tempat r&r kitaorg stop untuk makan bekalan yg umie-mak bagi. bihun goreng. then kench-grrr..sejuks. sebelum meneruskan perjlnan. isk2..hujan tak abih2..mmg banjir la bila...

erm.. h.m tuah ckp..senang je kalu nk kurangkan mood tak baik kepada baik..unhappy, to dropping-the-'un-'. 1. minum air byk2 - ok. sebotol mineral water each day mesti habis. 2. pakai wangi2 - spray kat 2-3 tempat yg ditetapkn setiap pagi. love it! 3. peluk pasangan kamu selama 3 sec each morning. - erm..

bila baca suna yg very bersyukur for her life, she makes me think of my life of what am i having. do i ever bersyukur? very little kesyukuran. that's wat i understand of myself. 1. family : my family. yup. my family, like any other family, loves their member. huhu~ i love my family, i am nothing without them. i love my siblings esp.. most of things, my deepest secrets are with them..lately je i don't feel like sharing. sharing isn't always caring, y'know. some secret, are meant to be kept and forgotten!!! and..if i can include here.. another family member i love the most would be my cats.. suma pon dah takde. tp.. zuriat niki+niko is the best cats-time. *sigh* 2. education : thank GOD. i think i really am lucky. i graduated already with a degree yg tak lekeh. huhu~ walupon result tuh agak unsatisfying, still... the university i went, is something yg aku proud of. from spm to degree= the best chapter of my life yet. i love my 2000 and 2001 life kat mahsuri, i'm proud...

...lately, there's so much things going on.. but, too much of sth, gives you nada to think or to live with. . thanks to eventful weeks, packing & unpacking. thanks to my sum1 who is responsible in converting me into this ignorant and 'live-life-cool' persona..continously from mid of the year to today. every thing in life, i could just accept and ignore. download.. then recycle. i couldn't estimate the degree of the problem, even to understand the problem itself. i refused. i just don't want to. well..i guess it's just my way of managing 'trash' in my life. soooo don't need them..why should dwell with them anyway? recycle!

*sorg2 kat bilik di Hotel Selesa, JB 1. Throw out unessential numbers 2. Keep only cheerful frens, the grounches pull u down 3. Keep learning         - Never let the brain get idle 4. Enjoy simple things 5. Laugh often: long & loud.         - Laugh until you gasp for breath.         - Spend time with friends whom make you laugh 6. Tears happen         - Endure, grieve.         - Live while you're alive. 7. Surround yourself with what you love 8. Cherish your health 9. Don't take guilty trips          - Shopping complex? 10. Tell people you love them at every opportunity.

... akhirnya my jadual tak padat lagi. haha.. ntah la..mcm2 plan sgt, rasa lega laks bila plan dah takde-(padahal raya haji nyer plan ada je..) ironiknya.. bkn plan je takdak.. suma pon takdak. huh!! takpe.takpe.takpe. takpe.takpe.takpe.. takpe ke takpe sgt? takpe ke asyik2 takpe? asyik asyik asyikhin..?? niway. i want a day of solitude. not that i need it that much, but solitary life i'm in..so..i want it. suatu satu hari. this weekend maybe?

it's always is like this. mungkin byk sgt tgk kwn2 yg hepi2 je dgn life, their 'vida'.. i'm thinking "would it ever be me, in such place?" "would i ever get what they have, or even better?" i used to wonder about the same Q, years ago. and now i am asking it again and, in the end..in the next 5 years.. i will still find me asking the same question to myself.. "would it ever be me?..." i should've known better..than to ask the same question.

**posing baek punya dgn datin norliyati n azmina kat airport~ since on sat 24th tuh ada hal.. hari ahad br g lgkawi memula tuh they don't even consider me going. i don't mind actually, only..the reason behind it would be 'syikhin is very2 the shy one..very pendiam.." <--not that i didn't know! dem. then napakah last minute they included me jugak? huh. watever. just enjoy the trip like any other trip. layan..layan.. lagipon..org lgkawi mmg nak aku g sana~~lalalalala~ balik je dr trip lain, rehat smlm kat as then trus je g lgkw dgn cik sue. nek keta dia, g lgkawi ikut kuala perlis. tak lamat sgt ikut sini, n cantek gaks. sampai je kat jetty lgkawi, trus je kitaorg jln g amik keta abah n g isi minyak b4 g jps lgkawi. derang dah stat time kitaorg sampai. dlm kul 930 gak la br sampai. kak faizah mintak aku dok sblah JD aku. huhu~tpaksa la lalu depan2 dan g duduk kat t4 yg mcm bagus. isk2..aku igt nk diam2 je kat blakang. nie dah mcm bos2 laks..tpaksa la berpura2 dg...