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There's this one night I'm scrolling IG, I saw this post about a free Turkish Language lesson by a language center from Istanbul in KL siap leh dpt free flight ticket lagi..tp kena repost post nie. aku nk join kelas je... Since it is free, I just fill up the request form..and  choose the day and time for the class along with several questions on my current level for the language. well.. to be exact, I know nil! hahaha..  I am not very familiar with the language. I remember during my confinement period with Aariz at Langkawi, I used to watch this one Turkish drama on Astro on the Go : Kiraz Mevsimi. the hero Ayaz is sooooooo handsome so i used to call Aariz by Ayaz too.. hahah.. it sounds a tiny bit similar. the episodes were quite a lot- ada jugak merapu sana sini.. tp, it was quite good considering you have something to keep you awake in the middle of the night! hahhaa.. i don't remember if i have watched all the episodes though... but i do like the OST. it's like happ...

i like my overall job scope at BPSP. i seriously never like my job more than here in BPSP. i feel like i can understand it better and with help from my colleagues, i can almost get things done in a way that i can understand the why and the how.  BUT..  this very project which tought me a lot, also give me a lot of hard time. to the point it makes me think of why this is super difficult and why i hasn't get something smooth running this project all.the.time.  i can almost sense that my tender for surveyor somehow going to that direction. but i can't force everyone to work the way that i want. i just don't have the pushy character in me yet (and i think i really need to work on this) it should've been put more force if it weren't by me, right? it would've get the appoinment letter out by now, if it was somebody else's.  i guess. so, i decided when the LP is not going to bersidang tomorrow due to MCO full lockdown, then i will fill up the SISWA and asked to be ...

masa covid nie kita bukan takat belajar new terms, tapi belajar mcm3 new norms.  pkp bermula semula but nothing like the 1st. setiap beberapa hari akan ada new SOP, this and that..and so is jadual bekerja.  cuma tak tahan, bila bertukar jadual baru.. sebelum pukul 12 malam baru bagitau. dan ko tak tgk hp tetiba pagi nk masuk ekehadiran baru pasan hari tu ko kena g keje.. adoi.  mmg la pengalaman.  memang time pkp nie kena flexible sgt. sbb mcm3 berubah dan the changing is too quick.  be flexible.  BDR berbaju kurung siap. slalu ghupe tak mandi ja. 😅😅😅 xoxo

27 April 2021, Selasa Lepas discussion dengan PUU smlm, ada la benda yang wajib aku buat hari selasa nie so aku kena datang kerja for at least half day - if i manage.  malam tu, discuss dan baca msg2 dari group sekolah pasal kes covid tu, hmm.. standard kes covid la. org yg kena tatau..igt demam biasa. tp bila lama sgt, check klinik..klinik suruh swap dan turns out ialah simptom covid. lalu anak2 dia pun swap pada hari sabtu dan positif pada hari isnin pagi dan membawa kepada penutupan sekolah.  only, kes tu dah ada kat sekolah pada minggu lepas tanpa pengetahuan sesiapa..... 3 kes covid tu ialah adik beradik. so parents yg mana syak dan tahu anak sekelas dengan pesakit c19 nie masing2 amik inisiatif untuk buat test dan dalam kul 9 pagi..kes dari 3 semalam menjadi 13  so kitaorg decide untuk buat jugak test kat zahin. so abg google klinik terdekat dan buat appointment untuk buat test RTK jam 4 petang.  ok. pilih test yg pantas dpt result it is. kalau positif, kita bw...

26 April 2021, Isnin Satu hari yang normal tp tak berapa normal sgt bila dah apply cuti tapi gi jugak kerja.  Sepatutnya aku nk cuti sebab nk uruskan hal pendaftaran sekolah Aariz untuk masuk Darjah 1 tahun depan. Since kitaorg x mo tukarkan sekolah Zahin, might as well sekolahkan aariz kat sekolah yang sama, tak perlu la nk submit permohonan darjah 1 kat sekolah harian kat cyberjaya. tp despite dah amik passport photo, dokumen2 lain belum diprint dan belum lengkap dek printer nombor 2 pun dh rosak jugak. aishhhh..takkan kena beli laser printer mcm opis kot baru ssh rosak?! nak jadikan cerita, dalam kekalutan standard pagi2, aku tak bawak henpon keluar rumah. sebelum naik kereta dah sedar tp malas nak patah balik- kata dh lambat kan. lagi pun, kat pejabat boleh je nak bukak whatsapp desktop. itu je yg sgt penting rasanya. boleh inform org aku x bawak henpon dan enjoy je la seharian tanpa telefon.  - kata henpon ialah distraction.  nak kata sampai opis lambat sgt lepas han...

Masa pre-screeening budget kat EPU.. org depan tny..org blakang pun tny.. huhu~ Asalnya tak nak join, tp last2 hadir la jugak sbb most info ada kat aku. yang sedia format permohonan projek pun aku. Kalau bos terdahulu, dia mmg akan well-prepared, tanya sampai kadang2 aku pun mcm aaarrrggghhh byknya nak kena cari dan nak kena bagi. dan dia yang akan tetapkan berapa je nak minta (peruntukan) untuk tahun depan. tp ok la sebab dia mmg paham, ingat dan boleh elaborate, seterusnya ada hasil la dari penerangan atau input dari aku. yg current bos nie, dulu masa awal2 aku rajin la bg info, explain... tp dia menguap, pastu berkali2 bagi maklumat, still dia anggap kepala otak dia takde info pasal projek yang paling besar dalam unit dia selain yang agensi luar. nie ayat dia sendiri ya : " Projek nie takde dalam kepala saya... "! <-- nie bukan baru masuk sehari atau seminggu atau sebulan ya. dah setengah tahun pun mcm bebal. even yang simple mcm projek2 AP182 yang aku sebut tiap2 bulan...

I don't know what actually is the initial trigger of the hatred towards my KPPK but I bet it intensifies through constant complaining towards her. and seemingly, she can never make up any facts that we have about her. none positive anything whatsoever. BUT, for my own sake.. I want to repent - bad-mouthing people as if I am much better than the others. Of course, when you're in too deep, it's very hard to climb up.. it takes a lot of effort and when there is stuff that triggers my nerve, I'll just flaring up all over again. I have to remind myself that it is not  graceful  at all to act up like this. I think this is the only thing that might stop or at least slow me down. An event a day before Ramadhan. I can still recall my annoyed, irritated feeling at the time I'm taking this selfie. hence, the pic. though the cekak sanggul is too nice for this post! I hate this.  this eating up my energy. eating up my happiness and my mood. I just don't know. But what I know...

Aku nie bukan la peminat tegar kopi.. lebih kepada teh. tp sentiasa teringin minum kopi sbb bau dia yg best gila. usually akan try nescafe, pastu sakit perut nk terberak! hahaha paling best kalau leh hirup kopi dan bermain dgn planner kat starbucks tau je la bila preggy dan menyusu, kopi dan teh nie x advisable. mmg tak best kan. tp ntah mcm mana, time lepas bersalin Awlya, aku g try starbucks plak. Rasanya sbb terpengaruh dgn kakak dan adik kot yang mai rumah tgk Awlya. then lepas tu perasan kopi dia lain sgt dari nescafe. x memerutkan perut sensitif anda! dan Hot Caramel Latte Starbucks ialah my milk booster! time tu jugak, dari awal tahun sampai hujung tahun ada promo memanjang. buy 1 free 1, rm10 asian dolce latte guna touch n go ewallet. terus jadi suka gila2...  Asian Dolce Latte masa harga just rm10. phew.. mmg setiap minggu 2-3 kali la! Kalau dah beli kat mama dan ayah..anak2 pun kena la ada juga kan. so instead kopi, bagi la minum choc. ended up zahin dan aariz ske mocha. ...

Minaz's back in 2016, still wear-able in 2021! Obvious tak aku nie jarang tukar baju..atau dengan kata2 baiknya aku punya berat tak de banyak berubah sangat so i get to wear my old clothes - except those before i got married and give birth! i guess i am too kurus back then, not too good anyway! hahahhaa.. loving this baju a lot especially all these appliques on this baju: something to die for. even dah lama baju nie, ramai yg mcm masih kenal baju nie brand apa (dan masih igt it's quite expensive yet limited).  there's just a lot i like in this dress.  the cutting is very nice and nicely fitted and body. i have a slightly big-rounded arm so the sleeve is quite ketat. and i only managed with M sized. (i hate M. always prefer max of S size!)  have breastfeeding access, but not the usual neck-straight-down zipper. Minaz put the zip along princess line which i seriously admire! tip-top la! the beading, chrome flower and the chiffon flowers are just so unique and one-of-a-kind ...

Dulu masa awal2 pindah kl/ klang valley nie, kakak ipaq dah ckp awal2, dok area nie kena spare tong air sbb kejadian takde air sgtlah kerap. memula tu nak kata ignore totally tu takde la..cuma just "take note". then.. bermula la notis takde air sebab pencemaran, paip pecah, pencemaran lagi..dan lagi.  time tu aku dok kat Taman Equine. rumah sewa lama ialah sejenis low density condo yang thankfully not fully affected by water shortage sbb tak penuh lagi residents so air tangki leh tampung- still kena la spare air. tapi yg tak tahan, kawasan liputan air / catchment rumah ialah sama dengan catchment utk pejabat. so bila takde air kat rumah, opis pun sama!! so takde talian hayat! hahhaa notis bekalan air Selangor..  kata ialah bandar canggih whatsoever, kes takde air sgt la kerap. dok kat alor setar dulu, atau langkawi tak perasan pun x de air. so seumur hidup aku kejadian takde air ialah sgt2 minima. skali pindah kl-selangor-putrajaya, tiap2 tahun kena hadap.  bila takde air...

this is just a tb but I really want to make it 'forever',like writing in the tombstone! " Sayang kalau jadi manusia tapi tak beri manfaat pada orang lain.." ~Aliya, 9 Feb 2021~ it really is something to ponder. and doesn't just something of a rambling but applicable in a lot of ways.  my 2 officemates, whom very truly helpful - Syifa and Aliya on Aliya's farewell to Japan~  p/s Good luck on your PhD journey Aliya.  hasta pronto! por...

Tatau la kalau org lain pun sama.  tapi aku lepas bersalin mesti kena tukar wardrobe 1st nyer sebab nk menyusu, nak la ada opening yg mudah untuk pam susu atau menyusu on-the-go 2nd dan paling pentingnya sbb saiz dh lari! nie paling menyampah la katanya lepas 6 bulan leh kembali normal (tapi exercise tak mau consistent langsung.. purlease laaaaaaa) aku mampu bertahan 2 tahun je utk pakai baju yg tak berapa cantik sbb ada nice opening ala selak utk menyusu dan pam susu tapi lepas tak aktif sgt menyusu,  aku sgt2 appreciate baju kurung moden yang nicely fit  tp badan tak berapa fit, nak pakai baju fit amenda? bukan la nk fit sgt tp aku rasa la aku nie slalu pakai baju yang tak muat elok mesti ada longgar sikit yang nmpak selebet kalau longgar nice je takpe! aku nie jenis pakai jubah ke, atau fesyen ala muslimah ala blouse longgar dan seluar ala palazo tu tak cantik. nie husband sendiri yang komen usually dia akan suka kalau aku pakai kebaya atau kurung moden ja. aku pun ras...

dulu2 konon akan sambung semua cerita bila dh kawin bajet kehidupan ialah berdua.  haip. masih berdua tp skang bukan takat 2..tp dah tambah lagi 3. marriage life is one thing. tp bila dah hidup sebagai isteri dan mak nie..kena tahu, we still have kehidupan sendiri jugak. dulu2 byk sgt kesempatan nk cakap pasal benda lain masing2 laki bini, tp kadang2 hal opis yang menyampah nk bawak sembang kat rumah pun x best. benda lain selain anak pun x best jugak esp bab yang pompuan je tahu. hahaha... takkan nk ckp pasal aku punya bab planner planning dan hobi embroidery dgn hasben. malas dia nk kisah..then bab mary kay ke..sikit2 leh la..then bab crush kat logan huntzberger..hahaha.. nie konpem la jangan kan. so, i missed that girls talk part a lot because that too i don't have anyone to talk about at office or adik beradik yang jauh dimata.. jadi, i think about this blog and sembang sini je la dengan diri sendiri.  that is the main why. bkn senang nak dapat satu kepala. dan aku nie sla...

Kelakar la umur mcm nie boleh tersuka gila3 plak dengan retis dlm drama! hahaha aku tak tgk pun Gilmore Girls masa zaman ditayangkan around time aku skolah menengah ke university gitu. masih igt lagi ramai berkata2 pasal Gilmore Girls.. ada team dean dan team 'milo' --> yes aku ingat milo x igt jess tp aku tak tahu banyak benda sangat. then these days, aku subscribe Netflix habuan rilek2 tgk tv since tv secara fizikal kat ruang tamu ialah terhad nk tgk.. so tgk je la kat henpon sendiri.  sebelum tu aku tgk byk cerita jugak,,then bila habis season dan ada yg best tgk sampai habis.. then aku tatau nk tgk cerita apa lagi. Nak tgk Grey's Anatomy tu dah mcm hafal sgt dah.. cerita2 baru malas nk tgk sbb mostly mcm melebih2 part sexual tu. yes aku dh kawin tp malu jugak kot! then aku tgk la Gilmore Girls.  Seriously Alexis Bledel sgt la comel, cantik a.k.a Rory menawan btol. dulu masa zaman utp pun ada sorg kawan nie sgt comel semua panggil dia Rory. Dan Lorelai pun best. dia p...

Dalam kerajaan nie, you can go, climbing higher up by being a senior, or maybe by further your study, or pass some exams, or just by knowing certain people at certain time, or maybe it is much easier to sum it off as a "rezeki" ada peneman ala2 ada geng dan tak perlu bergeng dengan org lain. super! .. and, you can even be there at those sweet top spot, yet not doing much! even a good officer came to think that when you are at a certain level in your career.  all you have to do is to delegate and let the person you delegate the task do the task from translating the what, the how, the why, the need; basically the sole doer of the task. and what those higher-up post do? hey, i'm the head! and since, i'm the head, let the body, hands and legs do the rest. i just do the delegate thingy with UP, UMP, UTP, UM and all the U in the world with a bit of initials and date at the bottom of those letters!!!  i hate her and i want to keep it, preserve it in this blog now that she so...

Mac 29,2021 Salam.. dah lama sgt tak blog sbb tahun2 selepas tak blog ialah waktu bermulanya diri menggunakan planner i.e midori dan hobonichi.. dan lain2 jenis planner. however, this year 2021..i started using them as a REAL planner instead of a diary.. or whatever keeper it was to me, then i lost time and it's kinda hard for me to actually spill everything in my mind into it, in pen. besides, these days, don't you think it is much easier to type than to write? yeah. i might steal some time from the office hour, or my lunch hour at the office because i prefer typing using the keyboard and not off the phone - better so, i just jot down whatever i feel like typing.  i simply couldn't live without diary / writing down whatever i have in mind, because i simply can only live and tell as much as i want with only myself. even husband don't really want to listen much to my office politics and he has a lot on his plate. and sometimes, i also have something of my own opinion and...