Vida de Mía

remember this? several months ago.. and a year ...indescribable feelings when i first viewing my birthday present and it still is indescribable, when i viewing it today. i remember my surprise. i remember everything that associated to it gosh how i hope everything is just as that crystal clear how i hope memory won't just gone or temporarily missing cause i need them all to be with me all the time all the time. path that bringing us closer...

to reminisce... simply like! ...and to cherish

february.. the month of love ? well dearie,  i love you. ..every single day, of every single month.  not just February!

apa je perkahwinan bagi aku? erm.. dari dulu lagi, aku bukan seorang yg mengimpikan perkahwinan. (even time memula incek tunang ajak kawin pun..aku mcm nak, tp berharap itu ialah suatu masa akan datang. not now, not in near future). yup.. mcm muskil je kan. tak elok fikir cam tuh pon ye jugak. semua org, esp perempuan mesti nak kawin bila sampai certain age. but to me.. marriage is rather hard. why? coz to me, marriage = responsibility = byk menda kena urus = memenatkan.   hehe..nampak sgt takmo pegang tanggungjawab. bagi aku, bila perempuan dah kawin, dia dah berjaya mendapat satu lagi kerjaya = suri rumah. semua hal rumah, dia punya hal. dia lah yg kena memasak, membasuh, mengemas..jaga hubby, jaga anak. padahal, kalau zaman skang nie, both hubby & wife akan bekerja. aku mesti akan keja makan gaji or some sort...then balik keje, ada  tanggungjawab lain pulak. phew. penat sgt kot. time single nie, aku boleh buat apa2 ikut masa sendiri. balik keje leh ...

Heart beats fast Colours and promises How to be brave How can i love when i'm afraid to fall But watching you alone All of my doubt Suddenly goes away somehow One step closer I have died everyday waiting for you Darling don't be afraid i have loved you for a thousand years I'll love you for a thousand more Time stands still  Beauty  i know she is I will be brave i will not let anything take away what's standing in front of me Every breathe Every hour has come to this And all along i believe I would find you Time has brought your heart to me I have loved you for a thousand years I'll love you for a thousand more... Christina Perri p/s fuh~ kalau dpt pelamin penuh bunga cam wedding edward & bella sgt best tuh..*berangan* hehe

this is attached with my best fren wed invitation. loving it.. so i'm sharing~ <3 <3

Cuando te vi aquella mañana por primera ves creí que desmayaba No pude fingir ni siquiera un poquito eres tan lejano y tan bonito Pero como hacer no se me ocurre nada tiemblo cada ves que cruzo tu mirada Eres para mi pero como te lo digo ya quiero gritarlo te quiero conmigo Sabes no entiendo nada me dices sola y ya me pierdo Aquí esta mi amor dime que también me quieres Aquí esta mi amor di que me amas por favor Abrázame bésame sino lo haces yo lo haré Aquí esta mi corazón no ves que estoy muriendo de amor No puedo dormir sueño despierta sueño que tu llegas y se habré la puerta Oigo tu vos que me acaricia y nos vamos al sol un sol que brilla Andamos por ahí y no reímos y un amor sin fin lo que vivimos No puedo evitar soñar así contigo quiero tu amor no te quiero como amigo Sabes no entiendo nada me dices sola y ya me pierdo Dame tu mano que el cielo vamos a pintar Dame una mirada y un arco iris central Y esa luna besara este gran amor por siempre Muriendo de ...

"Hawa dicipta dari tulang rusuk Adam.. bukan dari kepalanya untuk dijadikan atasannya, bukan dari kakinya untuk dijadikan alasannya, melainkan dari sisinya untuk dijadikan teman hidupnya, dekat pada lengan untuk dilindunginya, dan dekat di hati untuk dicintainya" *touched*

feels like it's the last chance. feels like it is my last chance. i'm afraid to try.. but if this is indeed the last chance.. i can't just let it go.. because last chance won't come again.. because it is the last but.. is it really, truly the last chance? or it's just what i feel... arrgh... p/s: tomorrow is friday, 16/04/2010. nothing special, nothing much..only esok keje. :/

hmm.. i miss you much2x, muahx23 but since you don't seem like missing me, i don't want to miss you anymore,lah!!! :(

Emo. huhu~dr zaman UTP lg, fisza mmg dah redha aku n suna yg agak emo. biasa la perempuan. tp..aku rs aku dah sgt kurang emo. siyesli siyes.   tp bila emo itu dtg balik.. agak kelakar pulak! aku marah. mungkin jugak merajuk jadi aku buat satu hajat secara tak sengaja... aku takmo everything. takmo. takmo. tak perlu. ...kerana menjaga hati. tp..bila menda yg aku takmo tuh betol2 'menjauhkan diri'.. aku jd cuak. what if yg aku 'hajat' kan sgt tuh betol2 terjadi? 'my wish has granted'.. aaaarrr...cuak. cuak sgt2. fuh~seb bek tak tercapai.. kdg2 ada gak baeknya hajat tak tercapai.. sebab.. tak sume yg kita wish adalah terbaek buat kita..kan2? kita bkn tau sgt.. org ckp.. 'sth that goes away,when it came back..then it's yours for keep'.. erm.. tp..cm tak penah 'pergi' pon.. haha..then kata2 tuh tak leh apply la dlm case aku. *malu* well~memang itu cara ku...

what i like the most? ...to drive around, being in a journey..a long journey taking a long trip.. so that i can just feel the air.. live life like there's nothing to worry about.. going far and forward without destination. but then..being in a trip for too long like a wanderer, no direction, no destination. no nothing to look forward too.. just go and keep going, hmmm... siyesli. siyesli? ..a veces

** my school, from end of 1990-1996 (tp pintu depan nie..yg baru punyer nie...hehe) i paid a visit to my primary school, somewhere in end of december.. mak wants to buy some books for daniel who is now in year 2. i decided to come along and take a look around at my school. selalu je lalu depan skolah nie..-since it's the main road to rumah kulim..but i never get inside the school compound since after i got my UPSR result-if i'm not mistaken... i think.. the school now is somewhat usang ..hehe..though the painting that me and my classmates, together with our english teacher did in 1996 is still there..it looks terrible and my name, wasn't on it anymore.. then.. those building that they used to place year 4 students, were now used as pre-school kids. the small field in front of it also has gone, replaced with comp lab..and the stage that i used to play 'zero-point'.. seemingly too low for a stage..and the flags of states in M'sia where i used to have lunch and pla...

... Kita jangan selalu mengharap kerana dengan mengharap itu, tak semestinya ia akan tertunai. Namun, kita boleh bersabar kerana kesabaran itu boleh mengajar kita erti pahit manis kehidupan sebenar..

i running out of patience coz i cant believe what the hell i'm hearing and speaking of hell it dont compare to this heat that i'm feeling i love u too much it shows, all my emotions go out of control good for u bad for me, when i can't hardly see from the tears that flow.. can't forget to breathe slow.. count from 1 to 10 with my eyes close.. coz, ladies take it in and get composure.. before i lose it, get composure i am gonna breathe slow, count from 1 to 10 with my eyes close coz ladies take it in and get composure.. ladies never lose composure not gonna lie or even try you got my wheel spinning and i aint the one to shoot the gun, cause that means that u will be winning~ i love u too much it shows, all my emotions go out of control good for u bad for me, when i can't hardly see from the tears that flow.. sb better hold me back, u're lucky i know how to act, (so lucky i ain't gonna attack) i'm being calm n cool, but believe me u is taking everything.. ...

If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away. If he doesn't want you, nothing can make him stay. Stop making excuses for a man and his behavior. Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from heartache. Stop trying to change yourself for a relationship that's not meant to be. Slower is better. Never live your life for a man before you find what makes you truly happy. If a relationship ends because the man was not treating you as you deservethen heck no, you can't "be friends". A friend wouldn't mistreat a friend. Don't settle. If you feel like he is stringing you along, then he probably is. Don't stay because you think "it will get better." You'll be mad at yourself a year later for staying when things are not better. The only person you can control in a relationship is you. Avoid men who've got a bunch of children by a bunch of different women. He didn't marry them when he got them pregnant, why would he treat you any differ...

Beginning today I will no longer worry about yesterday. It is in the past and the past will ne ver change. Only I can change by choosing to do so. Beginning today I will no longer worry about tomorrow. Tomorrow will always be there, waiting for me to make the most of it. But I cannot make the most of tomorrow without first making the most of today. Beginning today I will look in the mirror and I wi ll see a person worthy of my respect and admiration. This capable person looking back at me is someone I enjoy spending time with and someone I would like to get to know better. Beginning today I will cherish each moment of my life. I value the gift bestowed upon me in this world and I will unselfishly share this gift with others. Beginning today I will take a moment to step off the beaten path and to revel in the mysteries I encounter. I will face challenges with courage and determination. I will overcome what barriers there may be which hinder my quest for growth and...