Vida de Mía

gambar prog kat CH on march8-10.. >> hosmet setakat mac2012 sahaja... :( (cukup2 3 tahun) Owh.. soo true ayat diatas... cara org yg bercakap ayat tuh pon.. bunyi mcm kelakar je kan.. only bila terkena sendiri, agak menikam dengan tusukan yang pedih gak lah.. " Kadang2 doa kita mmg lambat sikit makbul " <-- referring to me & my colleague's wish, to get transferred to district- according to our gaji. Allah mmg sentiasa mendengar doa umatnya.. tapi Dia lebih mengetahui adakah apa yang kita nak, adalah terbaik buat kita ataupun sebaliknya. I guess this is the best time to get what I think I want last 2 years- despite having all the reasons in the world to not going anywhere now.. It's ok. I won't hesitate.

"dulu lain..sekarang lain" no one would want things to be just the same 'ol same 'ol . but no one too, would want anything less than good. and the changes.. too quick maybe.. but i don't prefer it. i don't fond it. i don't really like it. it could be people with different interests it could be that we are more focusing on our own stuff, work & family..and ourselves it could be that we are too busy for things other than what we already have or maybe.. it is me, who see things in different perspective. thus..everything changed..  according to me. last night there's another makan2..celebrating the birthday of 2 of our groupie. at the end of the makan2.. i can feel something not quite the same..it just felt..not quite right somewhere. then my housemate said on our way back, this could be the last year of this kind of celebration.. could be 1 or 2 of us want to move to somewhere else. yes. something is going to be diffe...

i don't have lotsa friends cause i prefer spending my time with my siblings and with those who are close to me at one time but...utp's friends are those i cherish the most.. i won't go and do everything they ask me to but i promised myself to try my best.. so i'm trying. :| p/s sth did helps though and i'm thankful for that!

fuh~ don't say that i never try i know i always said stupid things that make people bored with me that is why i am always the quiet ones i just observe. rarely sharing stuffs because when i am being open.. it'll end up with me burning hot.anger.hatred. damn!

Disebabkan bakal ada tournament tertutup kelab sukan & kebajikan JPS Kedah.. tetiba ada idea utk turun training sebelum ada tournament. aku spt biasa lah..malas nak turun..tp sebab badminton nie antara sukan yg aku pernah main jugak (secara suka suki kat kawasan quarters hospital) dan yg main tuh cuma geng2 sendiri.. layan jugak lah.. Sue booked court kat MRC, petang kelmarin after work... yg join cuma sue, aku, zul, syarul, en asnol & afrizal. hehe.. raket pun sue yg sponsor lebey. huhu~ aku pun g je gaya2 nak berjogging je apa pun tak bw kan. hahhaha.. fuh~ lama tak main.. mcm kelakar je rasa. kadang2 kena.. kadang2 tak kena..tp semua pun layan main, layan gelak. gelak lebey kot. huhu~ aku pon main pukul je..skor pon tak kira. mmg main je la..hahaha erm..enjoy jugak bila berpeluh2 di waktu petang. mcm nie je lah nk tolak2 kalori tuk nasik lemak pagi2 kan. hehehe.. mcm nak ajak wat mcm nie lagi. until game, atau jadikan hobi di petang hari sesudah duduk kat opis kan... cuma...

Kalau tahun lepas aku rajin g jalan2..tahun nie kekerapan berjalan2 aku ialah limited di dalam negeri jer. Gi langkawi..gi daerah2 di kejiranan alor setar. huhuhu~ tp..hosmet aku yg sebegitu tahun lepas dapat jalan2 pulak pada setiap bulan pada tahun ini. bulan arituh g kl.. bulan nie g kelantan..next month g tganu.. hu hu hu.. ada sedikit jeles. apatah lagi bila kena tinggal rumah sorg2.  hmmm~ aku dah excited nk g kl bulan 5..skali yg tuh pun terpaksa cancel. trip family pun cancel..trip kursus pun cancel. adoi. kena cari ruang nak jalan jauh2 gak nie..hurm..

...mungkin sebab dah pernah syok kt seseorg itu,dah tahu x dapat pun perasaan syok itu sukar untuk pergi *pobre de mi*

never would have thought i would become one of those monster whose eyes are green .. i kept this to myself coz i don't think it is siyesli what's happening here. i used to think i'm just being one of the girl who worry too much. but.. as i found myself keep on worrying the same thing from time to time.... i don't think i am worrying over nothing. i understand. i'm one of the alternatives.. who is just happen to be available at that time, at the right moment.. i'm blaming myself for that. from the moment it has started, i always pray for the feeling to cease. but it's not. and now.. here it goes again.. the alternatives.. a replacement.. could be the environment..could be of age.. could be time.. or maybe it is because of the nasihat that one's friend given and one have given a thought.. " betul jugak tuh.." ...i don't know. i siyesli don't know. the only way i see it is to forget about this..even if my eyes are now green .. i should...

Destinasi terakhir : makan mee udang kat Kuala Sepetang tetiba je bahagian pembangunan yg slalu ada je penunggu yg terdiri dari 3 orang engineers..tiada kelihatan pada hari rabu...05.01.11 tapi bukan takat 3 org je kat bhg pembangunan.. 1 dari USA, 1 dari KSPY dan 1 dari MUDA. hehehe... dari dulu lagi penah ada plan nak bercuti bersama2..tp bukan senang tau suma org nak amik cuti esp yg 3 dari bhg pembangunan lah. satu bhg sampai 3 org mmg obvious sgt. hahaha.. & of kos mmg ada org sedar pon. siap ada yg dpt panggilan that very morning. sbb tak suma amik cuti terus kan..tp sebelum tuh dah make sure dah takde keje yg btol2 urgent. hehehehe.. :p aku tak terlibat dlm planning phase. direct je tny ok ke tak lepas most of them decided. tp aku mmg tak kisah sgt. bab nak hepi2 nie usually on je. hehehe... ntah lah kenapa.. hari rabu itu terpilih dan lokasi bertuah ialah Bukit Merah Laketown Resort... pagi tuh dlm kul 8 lebey jugak baru bertolak dr as. planning nak bfast ...

"Kekuatan sebenar terletak pada hati..." **Semoga hati aku cukup kuat untuk menghadapi segala kemungkinan sebab aku betul2 ingin ke hadapan dengan penuh kegembiraan dan kebahagiaan... ^^

Congrats to Intan & Padel on their wedding~ May both of you live happily ever ever after ye.. ^_^

i'm not a secretive person i just..don't talk that much!

why do i need everything to be defined, to get confirmed? well.. it's just me. me.. whom need somebody to drop me a message when it comes to something that i can't be sure of.. coz i simply not that confident with myself.. let alone the whole situation thus i feel there's a need for me to be sure that i am not having a daydream  a dream that later could turn into a (beautiful?) nightmare.. but... i know what's in my heart the very thing that makes my day i don't know if i need to be that sure anymore maybe it's just enough to know that i like it a lot and to feel sure that i want to go for it.. and that i actually want it. thus i have it defined. and somehow i know..i have them confirmed.  :$

¿qué será que no hay amor?

it's been quite an eventful weeks lately people around me all had things that's just too much to handle while i'm watching them tackle their business, i'm struggling with mine..  rainy... floody...muddy...cloudy...sunny... the illustration given is clear enough.. thanks to you, things around me aren't that cloudy anymore ...i'm on cloud 9!!! ^_^ Fisza : her last mins as a single lady..hehe owh..i must add..here's another reason to be hepi... Congrats to newlywed Pn Noor Hafisza Razali!!! she's got married on Nov11th,2010.  wao..another best fren becoming somebody's wife. *hepi2* Definitely will go to her majlis this coming Dec. Can't wait!

he..despite aku slalu menunggu besday br bertambah umur..  tahun nie aku rs dah pun 26 tahun bila kitaorg celebrate besday ann & sue in early 2010.  jadi tahun nie, bila jaja celebrate her bday.. aku tak rs pulak yg dia & aku sebaya utk that 2 months gaps. dah la aku siap confuse lagi.."eh..bkn sept 2010 nie aku berumur 27 ke??" adeh! kacau tol! erm.. tp my besday is my besday. aku mesti akan ingat my very own besday. itu ialah aku punya kesukaan.. bg aku..besday ialah my fave event, my special day pd setiap tahun.   tak kira la apa jadi pon hari tuh kan.. hepi sorg2 tuh ialah mesti. contohnya.. sambut besday sorg2 masa umur 24. dah la time tuh bln pose.. balik keje naik bas, dgn hujan lebat plak tuh.. pastu berbuka sorg2 kat umah sewa yg besar sbb hosmet suma takde. tp aku ske je.. yelah.. aku berbuka dgn secret recipe tuh..hehehe hmm~tetiba aku nk mengimbau kembali this one kenangan. rsnya..inilah my very 1st besday party! sept 4, 2...

hmmm.. syak wasangka adalah sstu yg kurang baik, aku tahu tp takpe..aku tak syak yg bukan2 sgt pon.. kiranya dlm kes nie, syak wasangka ini bknlah prasangka yg buruk... tetapi.. adalah sesuatu yg mbuatkan aku ttanya2.. isk2..aku tak suka ttanya2.. apatah lagi berkenaan dgn sesuatu yang mmg aku tak mampu nak tanya! disebabkan itu jugak aku tpaksa berada dlm keadaan mengesyaki... lebih lama drpd biasa hujung minggu. ya. tak sabar menanti hujung minggu.  dengan harapan.. aku lebey cool dan tiada syak wasangka lagi! tp..aku syak, itu jugak tak lah sesenang yg aku sangka! adeh!

sí. yo voy a esperar hasta que tus 'ojos' vuelvan a abrir porque quiero la paz, ..buscando un poco paz