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hmmm.. entah lah nak kata nasib ke apa.. memula detect keyboard nb nie asyik bergerak ke kanan sendiri.. then redha je lah sbb nk guna application lain boleh lagi.. nak type pon kalau kena gaya boleh lagi. nie sampai nk pilih folder pon di pilihnya folder lain.. nak masuk tempat lain, termasuk ke tempat lain.. cronic sgt nie.. arrggghhhh and handphone pon pilih time nie jugak nak rosak. memula takat hang, leh lagi aku nk hang around. nie apa pon tak nampak dah kat screen.. haish.. dugaan tol. sabar2. note.chica : di saat memerlukan.. di saat sibuk. tak kena time langsung! *nak highlight note kat atas dan buat italic pon tak leh. malas nak type semula. arrrggghhh *bengkek*

i need to be slimmer i have to. i don't even have waist now and i hate it to the max.. though people said that i'm in bliss..happily in whatever matter i hate that i'm no longer 'la chica pequeña' :( i always want to be petite. i want to stay like that forever. i don't care people if people say i'm wayyyy too thin.. to me thin is great... and 'makin berisi' is a BIG NO NO! muka tembam. kecewa terus tgk gambar nie visible michelin tyres! waaaa.!!! p/s i siyesli need an advise from my ex-hosmet.. i need to maintain just like she does!!!! oh.in this case, not maintaining.. but losing in order to gain my " pequeña" back!! :( :(

why am i being too sensitive? no idea. i don't like it. no one would. but i am. i hate it but i am.. that's what i am that's what i always am no matter how much i am determined to change it i'm sorry lo siento en mi alma. :(

fed up! tekanan tol aku dgn diri sendiri. sokmo careless je. ingatkan dah besar2 nie takde dah bab careless.. mesti akan pandai je check everything, bagi semua smooth. but no. and this is not my first time. dah banyak kali sgt dah. tekanan je kat diri sendiri.  caner je nak buat bagi tak careless? cane je nak jadi seorg yg sgt teliti? kata aku ialah sept babe- seorg yg cerewet, meticulous lagi particular. ahhh..mmg sgt tipo lah! siyesli.. i do check first before submit whatever i'm doing.. but if today i miss this.. then later i'll miss that. i'm not doing it on purpose. but.. since it is my mistake, i should be more particular, and practicing to be a meticulous person..  bila ceta sal careless... aku ingat lagi series of careless mistakes yg aku pernah buat: cerita 1:  nie lah rutin exercise aku zaman skolah rendah . dolu2..aku agak kurang excellent dlm study. jadi, ami (pakcik) konon2 wat tuition/mengajar kat rumah. dia cuma minta buat lat...

it's hard to focus on one thing when you have many things in your to-do-urgently-list so this is what you call "busy" like.. time flies too fast.. one hand it's "yippie" and another more like "aggggghhhhh"-ey still... nothing else i can do but to.. Work it. *at least i still can yippie-ya-yay along the way <--*motivation* p/s : suara itu tidak pernah menyerabutkan.. pls know this by heart

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last week incident affecting me for few days.. all those days, i 'save' myself by trying my best not to talk about my nb-at least not verbally. but my night seemingly very empty because lately i'm back to my old addiction = blogging & blog-walking.. and going back home after work to see my table is very clean with mouse unattached... adoi...heartache. i contacted dell after the incident..to see if my warranty can do it's miracle work. But with series of emails.. it ended with one quotation that sent me lower.  the total cost of replacing parts is only rm31 less than the price of my nb when i 1st bought it. the technical person too added that "it is advisable to purchase a new system" but i can save all my data by turning my hard disc into external drive since it is still intact. :( :( still..i find dell service centre in kedah and sent my precious ceri_chica there for repairing. that guy too.. told me that i might as well get a new one. but he will t...

i love my nb sooo much, i named it ceri_chica .. (ceri because it's cherry red) suatu perlakuan yg pelik..i know. tapi tak kisah lah..:| straight to the main point- i spill my drinks on my nb. :~ <\3 it was close to midnight and i'm having pre-sahur = misi menghabiskan makanan lebihan time berbuka. termasuk lah ayaq nyoq. masa yg sama gak, aku baru je setel blogging tapi still internet-surfing. then time mengemas2 tuh, air yg memula dok kat lantai, aku angkat n letak atas meja.. then  accidentally i knocked the table and air tuh terussss je tumpah ke atas keypad. sebelum sempat buat pa pe.. terus je nb tu padam. apa je tindakan aku after that? cabut power supply..then terbalikkan nb tu to remove excess drinks..then lap tempat yg boleh di lap.. biarkan kering sbb aku takde hairdryer. mana nk tau aku kena cabut  battery and all part yg leh dikeluarkan..-which aku only tahu beberapa hari selepas kejadian --> cara2 nak selamatkan nb yg kene air . my interest at that tim...

never would have thought i would become one of those monster whose eyes are green .. i kept this to myself coz i don't think it is siyesli what's happening here. i used to think i'm just being one of the girl who worry too much. but.. as i found myself keep on worrying the same thing from time to time.... i don't think i am worrying over nothing. i understand. i'm one of the alternatives.. who is just happen to be available at that time, at the right moment.. i'm blaming myself for that. from the moment it has started, i always pray for the feeling to cease. but it's not. and now.. here it goes again.. the alternatives.. a replacement.. could be the environment..could be of age.. could be time.. or maybe it is because of the nasihat that one's friend given and one have given a thought.. " betul jugak tuh.." ...i don't know. i siyesli don't know. the only way i see it is to forget about this..even if my eyes are now green .. i should...

* never thought that i would ever find myself doing things that i myself hate to others.. thank you for waking me up. ** building up jealousy..i couldn't help but to fall deep into the trap. i'm sad and feel very weak.. i need to help myself and i don't want to take too much time ***i hate that i affected emotionally or of anything that caused my face to have breakouts. why2 i think too much.. why2 when i think i am elated yet that's not showing and for those.. i siyesli effected! damn!

* me, dr siti, cikgu shahidi, dr rodziah, dr mazniyah, kak faezah & cikgu lim @ kem palas,yan on july 30th 2010 1. 1st time tgk movie versi 3D. (ciwi sket) 2. WC 2010: mungkin perangai udoh, tp sy sgt suka bila team yg handal tersungkur (portugal, brazil & argentina..whhuuuuhuooo) 3. me voy sera mejor así. 4. España is the World Cup 2010 Champion. *hepi* 5. World Cup dah habis.. 4 tahun lagik pulak, when i'm 30. huh! 6. Indescribable feeling. 7. of kos aku sedar. =/ no te preocupes. aku layan je everything. walaupon.... 8. bersendirian selama a fortnight mmg agak memenatkan! 9. besday.besday.besday.besday. ^_^ 10. equinimity. totalmente. 11. kenapa aku tak dpt ignore kamu? 12. all the things that i misread. 13. my well-planned weekends. *grateful* 14. 1st time tayar keta pancit. huh. pengajaran!!! 15. isk3...mmg sgt2 tak aci. 16. Holiday in AS~ (alor setar je tuh!!) 17. Mencapai ketenangan maksimum. Tahniah! 18. 'hutang' telah berjaya di'bayar'... 19. Lookin...

reminder reminder... i couldn't remember a lot of things, i kinda need sth call remembrance like the one in harry potter - to keep reminding me of things i keep on forgetting. or maybe.. a lil more powerful brain for me to reminisce things that i love. but.. there are also stuff that i'm trying to forget. to lose. olvidar. yet, that's the very thing that keeps coming back and haunting me.. again.. and again.. thinking that i'm all 'bright&shiny', the effect would be much less... heck no. why why why i'm sooo don't need to be reminded of that! argh! *ah..over la chica ni. kater paling terer dlm 'the art of ignoring & ignorance'. hu hu hu~

hu~ (-_-)"" hari nie ialah hari gaji. anyway..dat's not the thing i want to talk about here. suppose i have sth urgent to get done today & tayar kereta pancit. bila je aku sedar tayar tuh pancit? tgh jalan. ada la lagi 1-2 km nk sampai opis. aku akui, aku lemau bab keta..confuse gak aku.. angin aku br isi last week. napa rs tak besh? aku tak check pulak tayar keta like every morning,kan? tp..aku tahu ini ialah pelik sgt2 bila keta yg di drive makan belah kanan. sth siyesli wrong.. sbb tgh drive, aku bukak tingkap tuk dptkan any signs ..ahh..gedegu k2 sah dah pancit la nie.. "wat should i do now?.. i have siyesli important thing i have to get done before lunch today." so..aku drive dgn kadar slownya g opis.. memandangkan i almost there. slowly menuju ke parking lot wisma negeri, then aku park baik punya.. time tuh baru aku tgk tayar keta yg mmg dah kemek. *breath* aku call abah, tak dpt. aku call kak nie. takpe..aku layan luk keje kat atas.. i'll worry ab...

**fuh~ my fave lunch during weekend back in 2008 as usual, the list: bulan Jun menjelma. tetiba kena g meeting @ JPS HQ,BSMA.  hajat nk drive sendiri g KL, surroundings & IKEA/IKANO/THE CURVE dah termakbul. ^_^ Nk tukar suka sama suka Kedah-KL?? <--huh! sj je 5 - 19 Jun : Bukan aku yang g Umrah Laksa dari Tapah. walaowei. (Thx to Zul.) malam g tgk wayang beramai2. Like it much23 walupon lagenda bdk setan tuh aku tak brapa ske. Gila2 5 engineers : Lunch @ Naim Gulai Semilang, Tg Pial . (gi-balik lebey kurang 100km) --> tp mmg berbaloi-baloi! ( link to ann's blog ) te extraño mucho. Sukan Dwi-Tahunan JPS Malaysia di Swak: geng bfast wakil-kan Cik Sue je..[JPS Kedah dpt #2. yeay!!] A week tanpa bosses kat opis. refreshing but sumwat lemau. WorldCup2010. England & España ialah pasukan pilihan saya.  3 novels in 3 days. Hu~ tgh jiwang karat, terlampau bosan @ kembali ber'hobi'? Insurance and Road tax for both Kelisa & City EL on june13th : betul ...

Time study kat UTP, aku penah amik course Mandarin. Walupon tahu takat belajar Mandarin 1 sem takan dpt pa pe..tp aku optimist. Better tau sket2 dr tatau langsung. erm.. tp, main reason i took mandarin would be sbb aku nk cukupkan credit hour for humanities nyer course lor. Mandarin, tak mcm BM/English/Arabic/Spanish ataupun Korea yg boleh men eja2 ikut bunyian/sebutan.. Mandarin punya perkataan mmg kena hafal. Characters, phonetics, pinyin blablah.. yep. mencabar. tp aku punya 师老 (lao shi) sgt bagus. chinese character kan main2 simbol..so, dia ajar sikit2 how to hafal, guna simbol.. e.g: 1. peng you ( 朋友 ) : simbol " 朋 " spt 2 org yang berjalan dibwh bulan (yue : 月 ). kiranya, kawan la kan sbb sama2 jln pegang tgn bwh bulan..hmm~ (nie kawan chenta nie..hahaha) 2.  吗 (má) vs 妈 ( ma) : 吗 ada bentuk mulut ( 口 ) kat depan. maknanya mcm exclamation, "what?", tp 妈 ada lambang perempuan (nv : 女 ) kat depan..jd   妈妈 ialah mama. (comel,kan? tp....

(these days...) Sharing is caring. but.. one must understand, sometimes.. one is also care enough for not always share. i like keeping secret, especially of things that i didn't sure of. the best thing about keeping secret is, if it's something great, you get to keep it all to yourself (greedy!). but of course, the opposite is also true!!! :( ~sob2 (then today...) is it of what i do or it's just because i am, me? sedeynye.. kamu ialah kawan saya. kenapa dahulu ialah begitu dan sekarang begini pulak? Am i that annoying? aaahh..suke hati mu la!!! distinct, yet both are  matter-of-heart   HATE!

don't want to say much. but siyesli..  Siyesli.  SIYESLI!!!! post. balik daerah gaji lgkw claim modelling stay unit rekabentuk i had enough of these sampah sarap/sisa pepejal!!!!! when can i start to live up to my name? though i have to add :  i don't wish for anything anymore. nope. tak mahu. tak perlu. related : keje-oh-keje-pulak  

*AAAAAAAaaaaaAAAaaaaaaaAAAAAAAAAAA~ i was at genting, queueing with my sisters for Cyclone. just out of the blue, i was reminded of my 1st time came to genting, with jaja. jaja and i was so happy spending time there and we felt that one day is just not enough. so she proposed. she proposed that we should come to genting again, some time in the future and we should bring a person or two with us.. people say, the more the merrier, right? but it's merely a plan. i moved to kedah. happy is the simplest word to decribe how i felt. despite these and those thingy..despite everything else. hepi. content. blissful. i can still remember my cheeks burning from the words appearing on my screen. as i walking towards home from work..the words still give me something to ponder about. hots in both cheeks again.. bliss. why am i frequently think about this person these days? this person whom i should not think about. why this person, not that person? but above all..why should there be any pe...

**my fave out of melambak2 yg aku beli kat cameron..this one is just perfect! hmmm~ 1. Fool in April 2. sayer dah ader bband sendiri!!! :) 3. No more kursus for me! <--like i want more kursus anyway! 4. 5S : baru sisih. then mkn2 kat Atap Rumbia. 5. Bowling@ Sentosa during lunch hour : Syarul, Zul, Syamil, Sue n me.. 6. Karok + Bowling at Ole-Ole : 1st time dpt 100 over . wao! 7. on a mission - with Kak Da 8. Kak da exam, me = jln2 kat SP: Taman Jubli Perak (kenangan zaman kanak-kanak) 9. Kerja hari jumaat : sort out 'hidup yg tak berkepenghujungan' 10. Jaja mai posting kat as. :) then tak jadik pulak. :/ (ntah hape hape!!!) 11. Resolution twenty ten : Flip-Flop 12. 1st fortnight of april yg sgt sgt sgt tsgt la panjang~~~~ 13. MESSY: cali yg sial! 14. Mencari ketenangan dgn memandu 15. Kelakornyer jatuh bersimpuh depan gate. tp..bkn aku sorg je rebah atas jalan..lalalala~ 16. MESSY LAGIK! SERABUTNYA!!! 17. Akhirnya masuk jugak duit claim 2 bln. 18.  Cameron Highland : Cool m...

sapalah aku nk belagak2 tp dah belagak dah pon. biar la..macam tak biasa terlajak perahu tak leh diundur kan.. jd, aku nk 'teruskan perjalanan' je ya. aku takde mood lagi emo. ala-ala pms tp bukan mungkin jugak lebey teruk tak sure apakah sebab utama. mungkin sbb suma benda sgt kacau bilau kebelakangan nie mungkin juga sbb aku dah lama berpura2 berpura2 sbg org paling hepi lagi paling bersemangat selama 2 minggu skang dah takde kekuatan lagik. mcm la kepura-puraan itu sgt berjaya,kan.. ahh..bagi aku sedikit masa utk recover then restart n refresh cameron..i'm coming tomorrow~ bukankah yang panas ptt di 'sejuk'-kan...?