Ali, bizim hamsterimiz...

10 November 2021, Rabu

Ali died today. 

Tak sempat nk berstory pasal bela hamster terus blog pasal hamster meninggal. 

Aku beli Ali kat Pet's Naturale 14 September 2021, umur dlm 2-3 bulan. So, bulan 11 nie, dia 5 bulan gitu. 

Ali menikmati sprays.. 

This 3rd hamster, later i named him Ali. 

- kenapa nama Ali? sbb aku dok belajar turkish. dan nama Ali nie simple tp paling glamer sebagai contoh dlm ayat2. So..aku rasa best plak dgn nama Ali. 

Ali nie, hamster yg best among all 3. dia yg 1st aku nmpak try roda berlari2 tu. pastu cergas sana sini..cuma malangnya dia kena buli dgn 2 ekor hamster lagi yg beli awal tu - Draco dan Tanqr. Tanqr nie skang dipanggil BakBak. Terpaksa la Ali nie dok dlm kotak arianni dulu sementara nk biasakan diri atau until cage baru sampai. dalam kotak, bagi Ali bola biru.. yg tu pun dia try jugak berlari2. mmg suka sangat tengok dia nie.. comel!

Ali jugak lain sikit rupa dari Draco dan Tanqr. Ali warna lebih gelap. kaler dia mmg monochrome gitu. hitam, grey dan putih. tp dia nie mmg soooo cute. tatau kenapa mmg dia ialah faveret berbanding yg lagi 2. kalau tanya zahin, dia nie baik. :)

Accident occured on Nov 2nd night around 9pm. he was squezed in between table and drawer. i don't think i can muster the strength to tell the whole story. 1 whole day after day, he was left alone at home, with me at office and didn't get any chance to go back and look at him. I know this 1 vet at putrajaya but not sure if it can accept hamster because hamster is an exotic animal. The next morning, I asked abg to contact the vet - on Deepavali and I took Ali to vet after abang made an appointment..then he was kept overnight. The doctor there said he is not too ok, and suggested for me to take him to another pet suitable for him for further check up.  i took him to another pet after picked up Ali as suggested by Petsville - El's veterinary clinic, an exotic pet for hamster and such at balakong and was told that he has a poor chance to survive. After i was told by the doctor that Ali has a very slim chance to survive..i feel nausea and feel the sudden need to sit. Ali, at that time also look very weak. 

Ali, a day after the accident.

So, i took Ali home, and picked up cerelac, as suggested by doctor and Awlya from school. I fed him meds, vitamins, and some glucose provided by clinics. he refused to eat.. so i didn't actually forced him until last sunday. Abang bought new cage that i saw on the day i took Ali to Petsville and setup everything for Ali. every several hours i will fed water to him.. and the some meds.. but at one time he look better, he even run, climb here and there - though ended up fell and then he got up again.. and again. at some other time, he just sit at some place and shaking, then move to the other place... and it is just to sad to see him having to endure pain like that. there are several times, i wish he could "go".. and i thought he would go, but he didn't. 

meds from petsville and el's vet. i didn't give all..

he spend a lot of time under this wood hide the morning before i gave him the last meal..

and yet he is not getting better too. 

On monday, i get this idea to feed him cerelac. i prepared them thin and using syringe, i feed him some cerelac and Ali seemed to take them better than glucose water. but somehow starting last night, he refused glucose and when i gave him he seems very distress about it. last night, he also seems to take glucose the bad way, i didn't give him any from 7 till this morning. 

he always love the sleep in sand bath. i removed the sand bath after i saw some bits of sand near his eye and wet head. look that he still has pretty fur at his behind..

this morning, as i am not too well.. i finally decide to rest and stay at home as suggested by my husband. after they all leave the house, i took Ali's med and do the normal morning routine with Ali. but the routine stops before water and eye meds. ali again, refuse the drink. after i fed him water, he was like struggle with it and the lie still. quite scary. but after that he seemed ok again.

at almost noon, i thought i should try with cerelac and glucose again. he looked weak but still do the same around the cage, sleep under the wood-home. then, i talked to him and he got out. i gave him a bit cerelac and he took it. i didn't immediately gave glucose, but let him walk a bit towards sliding door and back to me-then take him in my hands.. sit on the sofa, walk a bit..climbing me as usual..until i think i should feed him a bit of glucose.

and that was the last meal. he was struggling, shaking and lie still after the glucose and... die. 😭😭😭

his resting place.

it is, because of that glucose? i've been given that to him for few days, but only lately he seems to be a bit distress. could it be because i start the cereal? 

could be his last view before burried him. i open his wrap for final goodbye. :(

i am sad, seeing him go. his body, from fluffy Ali, to very thin and skinny head, one-eye blind, but his body and fur is quite as good as when he is healthy. it even look as if he haven't been in an accident. he is very sick..i hope he is not in so much pain. 

He died at around 12pm and i buried him around 30mins after. with few cotton bed from his last cage, with a stalk of my faveret lavender from his faveret sprays and a purple flower, wrap in clean tissue and kitchen towel with purple flowery washi tape. i don't know if it's enough but it is the best that i can come out with. at first i thought i want to wait for my kids to get back from home, but then, i go and do it alone. 

Ali eating cheese cube... 

I love Ali so much, i believe my kids do too. I hate that this is the ending to the lovely Ali.. but he will be remembered.

..and i will learnt the lesson, so that he's gone, not for nothing. 

You will definitely be remembered, Ali. 😭💖

p/s 

I am looking after him since after the accident and take him to the vet and after the vet...it feels seriously empty when I didn't have to watch the time and check him from time to time. even for the mere 3-4 days, it feels very 'heavy' because even he is just a hamster that I only play with him several times- even lesser lately, I heart him. A lot!

I didn't realised that when I reminisce as I look back on all those photos and videos, he looked so different before the accident, before the vet and his last look, it's just too sad to imagine. It is best that he passed, so that he may rest and be relieved from the pain. Even though I secretly wish he could pass the 'threshold' and lived, now I looked back, he look to sad, too painful and too skinny. :(

If only, if only he doesn't have to go through this at all.. *regrets*, *pain* but then maybe, we never get the lesson we are supposed to learn. TQ so much Ali. YOU WILL DEFINITELY BE REMEMBERED AND DEFINITELY LOVED by us all. 

Ali, bizim hamsterimiz. Ebediyen bizimis. 

Sana çok seviyoruz. 

xoxo