Vida de Mía

bertemankan rana... heheh.. is it? well..the main reason i thought it would be such a hepi2 month is because, in the late of may, i already know that this month would be full of trips and things that will be taking place. i love having lotsa thing to look forward to. and up until this date, i can say, i have been thru 3 events= 1 things/week and certainly..each trip is different yet something. hehe but the main event of the month will be today!!! lalalala..me n my special one. hehe...can't wait! *tp yg next week nak g kl..jln2 tuh, there's slight changes in the plan that might've change everything..less hepi maybe. tp live life cool..so, enjoy with wat we have..

i always think indifferent is much better.. i don't know... come bila aku takmo .. tak muncul bila aku nk sgt2. there when i'm NOT hoping missing when i have expectation . THIS IS SOOOOOO MI VIDA

It used 2b the place where my family usually hang out at nite..v windy,large tv,brightly light w neon,cute fountain but now t4 ni agak hampeh.syg nyer..tp lepas mkn smlm,trus je singgah kt dataran lang,bg uz,bdk y br blajar jln,jln2.hehe. T'igt blk dulu time br pindah lgkw..time blajq kt skolah men..isk2.those hepi mo' that won't come back.hmm..xpa. Jom create hepi mo' skang instead of wishg to turn back time--> xde gunanya! Estoy esperando a él. Me llama o mensaje. Pero anoche yo tengo nada! ¿debería yo esperar más tiempo o no? y más lo quiero pero.. ¿me quiere?


wait.. waiting.. waited.. but still there's nothing happened after that long wait. porque? why? kenapa? it's so hard for me.. to even get the very same thing like others had.. to even get the same thing like other had ..several times..too many times..easily.. was it because i am too lucky in other thing that i am condemned for the other? life isn't fair. life isn't normal.. since it is a matter of time.. i will ... wait again until i can wait no more.

... maybe i am being less gratefull.tp susah tol nk satisfy with what you have. human, they always seeks for more..tp aku nie, i have no idea what am i seeking to, looking for, myself. all i know, i want to be satisfied, i want to have satisfaction so that i won't question my happiness en mi vida, con mi trabajar.. 85 days to 25 y/o .. what are my expectation??? what i want to have??? what i want to secure??? my job. i like being an engineer, since i don't get to be in petro-family, being in gomen is someth i could say, grateful enough. only, the post i am having right now isn't something like others had. been told that to be special, there's something you need to sacrifice. but i don't see 'special' ahead of me. i am demanding..i am like this. i hate being hanging around. i like to work, doing something i know i have to do..something i know as MY JOB. maybe i don't recognise my own ability.. whatever..less satisfaction in job.. lead me to...

Erm,apa y hepi,sronot n bahagia sgt? Basically sbb bln ni mcm penuh je dgn activities. Startd dgn iso@sg petani & penang,then g tech talk kt ampang, dpt keta idaman,pastu g swiss inn kt sg petani n last skali kursus kt ampang b4 plan nk lajak g genting. Jln2 mmg best..apa lg y aku nk look 4ward to,melainkn keje keje n keje. Cuma part design mmg mcm dh penat.tp ntah la,penat sgt ke?bosan la sbb kt alor star xtatau brapa lama,then keje mcm mbantu y mmg mbantu free2 je.jawatan pun xtentu..kalu aku mmg designer mmg akn ske ke?erm..takat 3-5thn bley la.kalu dh naik 44 xmo dh.nk chck2 n meeting n decisñ makg lak.leh? Pa pe pun,enjoy bln jun.kita cr lg menda br nxt month ek.:-D